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The biggest "Shadow" in my Human Design is my wide open Heart center. This means that I have the most unlearning to do around feeling like I have to prove myself, to achieve for the admiration and respect of other people.

I've done A LOT of work on this. To let go of doing things for the respect of others or not doing things I really want to do because I'm worried I'll lose that admiration.

And yet, what I've realized during this pandemic lockdown is I still use work as a way to prove myself. 

In this episode of LUMOS I explore how this sneaky Shadow was showing up in my business and how I'm moving through it.

I kind of love how Human Design calls our monkey mind and unhealthy patterns our "Not Self." Because it's just that: not our true self. Our true self speaks to us through our Decision-Making Strategy (strategy + authority). But we have to be able to hear it, trust it and follow through on that guidance -- and that's where our mind can get in the way.

 In this episode of LUMOS, I tell the story of two different client requests that really cemented for me the relationship between my Decision-Making Strategy and my "Not Self" (my monkey mind and unhealthy patterns).